Gershon and I were married on September 8, 2007. It was the happiest day of my life. The love of my life and I had become one under God. Even writing about it now, it still feels like a dream. I can’t help but smile. Who could ask for more? With love on our sides, we could conquer the world. No one can ever prepare a wife for what is to come in marriage, though. Any married person will tell you that it isn’t easy, but two broken people together does not make a whole person. It was no different with Gershon and me.

When this blog post publishes my husband would have only been deceased for 100 days. It is still very new. Learning to cope has not been easy. I imagine I make it look easy, though, with all the “you are so strong” compliments. The truth is I don’t feel strong at all. Daily, I wonder if this will be the day I can’t get through. In the back of my mind, I know I have no other choice but to keep going. I have my babies. I promised myself that I would take each minute as it comes. It has gotten easier using this approach. The way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time. So far, I’ve been devouring this elephant!

There has been quite a bit of spiritual warfare since Gershon’s passing. I don’t know why I expected anything different. The enemy spotted a playground because the head of my household was gone. There also were a lot of opinions about the status of our marriage. There were rumors that we weren’t together. Others said that Gershon was planning on divorce. At the end of his life, though, Gershon died at home with his wife. We were married until death. I honored my vows and I’m at peace with that. I was the best wife that I knew to be. That is all I could do. You will soon learn why I feel the need to justify that. We will take a look at the events from my perspective that led up to and followed my husband’s transition with a peek at our very eventful marriage and how I’m overcoming all of it.

Phillipians 4:7 ย ย And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

I can not tell you, even at this point the amount of faith and peace the Lord has instilled in me. I like to say that I have been in the eye of the storm. There has been chaos all around me, but God has helped me to maintain my sanity. Never once have I questioned God’s Will. He is still awesome even when things don’t go my way. Things are definitely not going the way that I imagined.

Has God given you peace during some unfortunate situations? Share them with me by commenting below or by emailing me at lynette@afterthepain.net.

 

 

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13 thoughts on “The Peace in ‘Til Death Do Us Part”

  1. The biggest thing that came to my mind when I experienced God’s overwhelming peace was after my mom died. I was 16 and it was HARD! Initially, I didn’t think I could go on. But I did and I thrived and I know it was because of Him.

  2. I had never lost anybody this close before. It will take your breath away, literally. You were so young dealing with that. Congratulations on thriving in spite of. I am so proud of you.

  3. thank you for taking the time during your process of healing to share your heart. there’s comfort and power in hearing that someone else has experienced and conquered what we might feel we are carrying alone.

  4. You’re welcome. Feeling alone is the worst. Hopefully, I can do my part that few more people won’t have to feel that way ๐Ÿ˜Š

  5. Right now. I’m going through financial problems but God has given me peace to know that He has already provided and I will be better than blessed. I almost panicked a few times, but in a situation where anyone’s normal reaction would be to run scared, God has assured me that all is well. I don’t know when or how, but I trust Him and placing this burden in His hands is the best place for it to be.

  6. That’s awesome. I guess I’m going through that, too. Every now and then I panic. God has never failed us, though. I don’t expect him to start now.

  7. Recently, giving birth to my daughter. At 29 weeks, the doctors was telling she wasn’t going to be able to breathe on her own. They also found a narrowing in her heart that wouldn’t allow blood flow to her lower extremities. Also, they were concerned with my heart and whether or not I would make it through the delivery because of my heart issues as a child. Even though I had my husband, mother, and mother in law there with me the entire time . . . I had never felt more alone and scared! I couldn’t think and I felt like I was going crazy because all of this happened out of NOWHERE. I had to gather myself and truly cry out to God in a way that I never had. The peace I experienced after that prayer was truly surpassing of all understanding. God assured me that His will is perfect and He makes no mistakes. I was prepared for this. I just needed to work my faith and take it day by day. A whole week later, my daughter is here and healthy at 2 lbs 12ounces. Breathing on her own and her heart working perfectly!!!! Needless to I made through my natural labor with no epidural. My faith in God has never been so strong! No matter what we deal with in this life God is the Alpha and Omega, he’s knows our beginning and ending. He equips us for each battle we face, we just have to trust him when the way gets. . . Unbearable. Love you and I love what you are doing!

  8. Wow, Omega. That’s some grown woman experience there. When you are in a room full of people and still feel lonely…you’ll be able to minister to someone through that very thing.

  9. God’s Will is perfect and He knows all things. Aren’t we blessed to serve a God that knows all? All power is in His hands. Your baby is beautiful and soon enough she will be tearing your house down. Be blessed.

  10. Yes! My sentiments exactly. What a powerful God we serve! He makes us stronger than we think we are! During this experience, I felt the need to start writing about The Wait and The Weight. Dealing with my emotions while WAITING for God to come through and experiencing the WEIGHT of His glory all at the same time. It felt uncomfortable but I can understand the necessity of everything that occurred. It brought my husband and I even closer to God.

  11. My sweet Lynette. I am so grateful to be able to take this journey with you. I pray that God continues to give you that peace. We all go through so much and we have to uplift and support each other. We all need that healing. Thank you for sharing your story.

  12. Awe, honey. You’re welcome. I owe all the thanks, though. This won’t make any sense at all unless I can help someone. Thanks again for reading ๐Ÿ˜Š

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